>> Friday, October 10, 2008
Aggie wants to know me!
Secondly, I want to KNOW you. Just YOU. Sans kids, the husband, just YOU. I have a lot of ME tags in my blog – you can use that. What do I want to read: You – Now. It can be as simple as “I love Coke.” or as complex as “I am the crossroads of my life.”
I can't say that this is the best job coz it's not. Since I transfered there, I can hardly prepare a decent dinner for my family anymore. I hate going home feeling so wasted! I've also developed migraine and am anemic (again). I was not even promoted! However, I am privileged to work with our best students and at the same time, deal with the problematic ones. Just imagine my anxiety whenever I see a security guard approaching our office! A visit from one could mean another disciplinary case which needs to be dealt with. It's not a bed of roses, really.
Remember that we are nanny-less. Thus, I am grateful to my understanding husband who makes up for what I fail to do, to my father who is always there to support and assist and take care of us, and to my daughter who understands that Mommy is tired and can't read her a book. They understand that I need this job, not just for financial reasons but more importantly, for professional growth. This is a big break given to me and I am very grateful to the persons who trusted me with this.
More than ever, I now look forward to weekends - to just being with my husband and kid. I know they make me crazy but still, they keep me grounded and sane. They help me cope with the challenges that I have to face each day. I look forward to spending time online, to trying to scrap a page even if I fail, reading books which have been collecting dusts and praying. These keep me sane. Yes, the house is still messy. And I still need to organize, be more healthy and disciplined. But for now, I don't want to make my life more difficult. Balance can be a tough thing but I am holding on for I believe that this is temporary and better days are coming.